I feel hopelessly sad and angry as hell at the same time. Here's the deal....?

Your age and current situation do no more than ist in statistics, Its not where youre at its where youre going, continue following goals and aspirations no matter what, big or little steps youre still on your way. Id suggest taking a step back from yourself and really yzing how you go about things such as thinking, reacting, carrying a mood, expression, mental & physical habits etc. Then after recognizing some things, think about what you would rather not do anymore and some things you would rather do more of to make a better you. Then read about your perceived issues and begin to correct them. When youre through learning youre through. Hope that helps. Some feedback later on things would be great, I love to hear when someone gains positivity in their life.